I have been busy with work, writing, and doing some graphics for the upcoming releases. The hand continues to give me trouble, though the nerve test was negative. I was given a cortisone shot that seems to be working a little bit.
I am on pins and needles about the book I'm writing. Once again I feel my deadline may be hindering the story. Goodness, I hope not.
It's not just that.
I've been dealing with all the pain in my body. I don't talk much about depression, anxiety, and fibromyalgia mainly because I see so many people on disability for these things that I fear if I do I'll pointed in that direction. I think trying to work through the pain while finding a solution is making me depressed more than the actual pain. I'm still experiencing pain in my neck, though I refuse to go back to my doctor. I'm tired of people looking at me as if I'm a pill seeking junkie. I hate that shit. I don't want to cover the pain, I want to STOP it. Since nobody can seem to fix it, I just try to ignore it. I'm also trying to ignore the thoughts of stopping the pain myself. It sounds like an amazing idea, but its just thoughts.
I try to bring up the subject to my primary, but she just kinda looks at me funny. Like, I need help with the depression, because of the pain...but no, just hand me a muscle relaxer and tell me to exercise. Ugh.
Anyway, I have nothing knew to report. Just wanted to post an update. Let everyone know I'm hard at work. Though, I did just read four books in the last two days. I have a big TBR pile.
Until next time,